Last days

How old was the last person you kissed? 24 i think

Name something funny that happened this week? i made an enormous mess of toilet paper in a park bathroom, confetti style

What is bothering you right now? my digestive track

Do you get along with girls? some, most.

Who was the last person to call you baby? probably my mom when i was a baby. she said "yeah man... .this is my baby"

Who is the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with? probably mariah, just cause we talk all day long at work.

What's on your mind right now? i only have 1 hour left at this job, and this questionaire thing

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset? i'm not sure i can tell the difference, i mean if you took me and put me in a box for several hours and didn't tell me what time it was and put me out side as the sun was moving, i'd likely be more confused about what was going on than feeling romantic

Do you tell your best friend EVERYTHING? i don't believe in best friends

How have you felt today? bored, hot, hungry, full, happy

How old do you look? i don't think that is a fair question because we always perceive ourselves differently than other people, so what age i might think i look like might be totally different that what everyone else things.

Are you waiting for something? the day to end

What were you doing at ten last night? taking pictures in a park bathroom, confetti style

Last myspace message you received? i dunno, i don't get many myspace messages

Does anyone hate you? i'm sure someone out there does. sometimes i think hubble hates me. like when she pee's on the floor, i think she has got to hate me to do that.

Can you handle the truth? i believe that the truth, while it may hurt is always better than a lie. The truth gives you ideas for improvement, lies just lead you to believe everything is okay when you shouldn't.

Anything you'd like to say to anyone? sure lots of things. doesn't mean i'll ever get the chance or have the guts to say them.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day? i think i read ender's game in one day.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? at what? sometimes second chances lead to unnecessary third and fourth chances. Take Hubble for example. She pees on the floor once, i tell her i'm getting rid of her if she does it again. And now it's like a daily thing and i can't get rid of her! gosh. Second chances aren't always worth it.

Do you miss anyone? always. Many people

Do you hate the last GIRL you had a conversation with? no, i don't.

Do you think your ex still likes you? hard to say. I like to tell myself that he does not, cause it's less stressful.

If you could move to Africa would you? i would visit, probably not move there though.

Have you ever been held back a grade in school? since i was born in september i had to wait a whole extra year to start kindergarten.

Are you easily scared by horror movies? no. why would you be scared by something that you know is fake? its the stuff that's kinda real that's scary.... like documentaries on eating too much fast food.

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort? depends on the subject. i try to avoid asking anyone for advice or comfort. I'd rather not burden other people, not even my parents.

How long would it take you to walk home from school? 3 years, since i haven't been to school in that long.

Have you ever punched a tree? Not that i can recollect. One time when i was a kid i ran into a tree in our yard with my head and when my head hit the tree i knocked a bees nest out of it and was stung all over many times.

Do you find the opposite sex confusing? not all members of it, sometimes. But then i find all people confusing most of the time. so it's hard to differentiate between girls and boys and who is more confusing.

Do you know anyone who's been in jail? i'm sure i do... Yeah, dan the formerly homeless man i used to work with was arrested twice over memorial day weekend.

How many kids do you want? at the moment none.

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? always. every single time it goes off. So i set three alarms, and i still fall asleep after each one goes off.

Do you know anyone that lives in New York? sure.

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? i try to avoid tomatoes as much as possible due to an unfortunate food allergy. and besides that aren't all tomatoes technically home grown, since they're all grown in their homes, even if that means they were grown in a lab somewhere, they were still grown in the tomatoes home.

When was the last time you argued about something with your boyfriend/girlfriend? i don't have a boyfriend so when could i have possibly argued with someone who doesn't exist?

Will you be in a relationship in a week? not likely.

When's the last time you saw your best friend? The last time i saw newton was last night.

Who was the last person to call you? August. He called to find out where recycled cycles was, i didn't know what to say.

Would you cry if you found out you were pregnant? oh heck yes, i'd cry because i wouldn't want to be.

Have you ever had a pet fish? lots. my sister murdered one once.

Are any of your friends pregnant? not to my knowledge.. it's possible though.

What do you need to go shopping for? bicycle helmet

What do you have to do tomorrow? pick up my bike from the shop, go ride bikes all day.

Do you think you'll make a good parent? probably not.

Are you taller than 5'5? much.

What were you doing at 9 this morning? working.

What are you doing on Saturday? maybe kickball, then omega man.

Do you like grilled cheese? i love cheese grilled or not.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? the only things that i allow to enter my nose are 1)tissue 2) netti pot 3) my fingers and 4) other carefully chosen items (i.e. clean pens)

Can you admit when you're wrong? yeah, as long as i am actually wrong.

Is there a person of the opposite sex that means a lot to you? sure lots, but not in a romantical sense.

Do you like to argue? no. arguing is for sucks.

Can you change a light bulb? even when it's broken to bits i can!

Where will your next vacation be? going to maui in sept. before that camping in august

When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? um, when the guy backed into me at taco bell.

What is the last thing you spent money on? tostada salad for lunch

What would you do if your ex called and wanted you back? honestly i don't think i'd answer the phone.

What's your name? Natalie

What are you craving right now? nothing.

What was the last thing you cried about? let me think, i don't know. i don't remember the last time i cried.

Have you ever blocked someone? i can't say i have ever turned someone into a block before. though it sounds really cool. If anyone knows how please teach me.

Do you wear a nametag at school? i don't go to school. but if i did i would wear my name proudly.

Are you happy? i'm happy i don't have to work tomorrow.

What was the last movie you watched in theatre? The Dark Knight!

What is in your pocket? fabric?

Where do you hurt? my tum tum

What's something fun you did today? something fun... nothing yet. been at work all day.

What kind of milk do you drink? soy. mammal milk makes me ill.

What are you going to do after this? hopefully getting paid, depositing my check and going home.

Do you like pickles? mmmm. pickled spears.

Is someone in love with you? if they are i don't know about it.

Favorite popcorn flavor? um... carmel?

What were you wearing when your last kiss took place? no idea.. it was soooooo long ago.

Song playing right now? the sound of traffic outside my office and keys clattering on the keyboard and the girl who is replacing me complaining.

Does anyone like you? if they do... i don't know about it.

What were you doing an hour ago? working, probably this stupid thing.

Are you tired? not really. just uncomfortable.

What color is the shirt you are wearing? black hoodie.

Last person in your missed call list? randee

Last person you called? randee

Do you like dogs? some are ok. but i prefer cats.

Where were you at noon yesterday? probably sitting where i am now in the office playing freecell.


we are family, i got all my sisters and me

hot dogs and beer to rockeroke and drinks.

Here's to krista's ridiculous ideas, long nights, seeing high school counselors act like fools, and really rough mornings.

wooo. last night was a hoot.


A new way of life

paul newman and batman are the standard i hold all men to.

find some beautiful place to get lost

things i'm currently addicted to:

Elliot Smith
Edward Norton
Not working


paranoid eyes will always come back for more

The weekend has left me covered in bruises (physically and emotionally.) I hate that certain people turn me into a total retard. I Love them. But i hate that it always ends that way. I guess it could be worse.

i walk away broken.


i'm sick of workin for a living...

I finally told my boss last night that i'm starting my own business and i either want to work part time for a little while or i'm out now.



Unfortunately when i told him he said he couldn't make a decision right away. So we'll see how it pans out.


Early Morning Suits You Well

I'm feeling extremely unproductive lately. Really looking forward to August and September. Wishing i had more time to myself. And more time with those i haven't seen enough.

Trying to make myself feel better.
don't worry i'm on my way out.

These are the things i've been dreaming:

{in reverse chronology starting with last night}
0.I dreamt that i got three speeding tickets in one day. Two were your average speeding tickets and one was astronomical $6,657 for going ten over. The cop said that making the ticket that much was the only way he could avoid arresting me.

1. (Batman comes out tomorrow night/friday.) I Dreamt there was a sneak preview on tv and i was watching it, and realized i was watching it and got really mad at myself but i couldn't stop watching it. Then i realized it wasn't the one with christian bale and heath ledger, it was one with a hodge podge of people who have been in batman movies and was thusly very decieving because it was new and it seemed like all the actors that were in it should be in the new batman.

2. I dreamt that i was traveling from town to town with my mom. Like we were nomadic. and we stopped in a fishing town. In the fishing town was a big beardy fisherman that i had met previously. we fell in love. But as usual i didn't bother investing an real emotions into it because i knew we'd both be gone before long and why risk feeling hurt?

3. I dreamt that me and randee were in a shipwreck and we survived because we're amazing. And since we were so amazing, the coast guard wanted us to train to be their rescue divers for the Bering Sea. So we did. This was some very hardcore training. It involved swimming in the bering sea. And i couldn't get the stupid gloves for my wet suit thing or the hood for it on cause it was too small and so i did the training without them and it was cold. But i lived. It built character.

4. I dreamt that Tegan and Ryley had a second wedding ceremony and a guy from off the street came in during the wedding and put his finger in the cake.

5. I dreamt that Tegan, Ryle, Kuma (tegan & ry's puppy), Randee and i were in the woods exploring this old abandoned house and i was sitting in our car when i wild pack of dogs and wolves started stalking us. And i saw them before it was to late and started yelling "WOLVES! WOLVES" and everyone ignored me. So i got out of the car and told them we need to leave. but by the time i got their attention it was too late. We were surrounded. (argh i just knocked my coffee over and it spilled all over my desk) And kuma who was very protective at first looked like she was about to turn on us. she was acting really weird, like she was stifling her wild dog tendancies. So i decided to sacrifce myself so my friends could get away. None of them tried to stop me so i walked up to this chow and expected it to eat me or at least attack me. But it just pushed the top of its head against my leg really hard. And suddenly i understood what was happening. The dogs/wolves were trying to figure out ways to communicate properly with humans. and when they pressed their heads against us they could.


I washed out the inside of my head last night. it feels a little better.

I dreamt that it was snowing last night. It wasn't winter, it was july. And my dad was taking my friends to jump in a frozen river for a swim. And it started to snow stars. I later found out it was my friends little sister making snowballs look like stars and dropping them off the roof.

There has been lots of thunder and lightening this week. i love it. it makes me miss winter.